How does one live with the decisions one takes? Life in all its complicated glory never allows for a black and white approach. Its all shades of grey. We all live lives where pain and pleasure are part of everyday existence.
We all want a story to our lives, a deeper meaning to our existence. Different parts of our lives form chapters of this narrative. When seen in this context finality is often erroneously confused to be a bad thing, a sort of negativity. Yet it is inevitable and natural. Young ones of many species move away from their parents. Does it mean that there was animosity or mutual disgust? Absolutely not. It simply means that the parties decided to find their own narratives, write their stories and form their own chapters independent of each other. In the context of humans, this severance is not easy given the deep bonds we form, yet their necessity cannot be denied. Because for our stories to continue in a healthy manner and for their chapters to evolve, complete severance of certain ties is critical. Acknowledging the necessity of the same is crucial for effectively writing that narrative.
Slowly but surely I am training myself to see the past in perspective. It is not easy. But it has to be done. The world around me has moved on with many of its inhabitants finding their bliss and beginning another chapter of their narrative or their story. I am no longer relevant to these narratives and as the example with the young ones go, it is time that I be left to my fate to continue my story. Yes the human conscience will find this difficult and thats deeply admirable, but I have to be left to write my story and its next chapters and it is entirely my problem whether this ends well or not. After all its not helpful when irrelevant people are deemed relevant. If that means I have to assert my irrelevancy through finality, I have to do it. This is neither wrong or bad, it is simply reality and it is what is natural and I will have nothing but gratitude forever. Personally though, I see good things coming my way as I am sure the bad will as well and I will face them as I have, unprepared and eager to survive.
Going forward, I will find distance and I will enforce finality. But I do so, not out of a sense of bitterness or anger, but simply out of respect for the events that have already occurred and well beyond any of our control. There will be nothing but prayers wishing best, yet these prayers will be said in private and at a distance. The optimist in me stands vindicated though, for In the grand scheme of things, all is well that ends well
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